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Sunday, March 28, 2010

Day 204 - Day 206

March 26 - March 28, 2010

My last weekend in New York City was nothing short of fantastic! Check out my photos on Picassa Web Albums! We went to The Irish Rogue; it's the same bar I went to on my birthday! It was a blast! Remember the boy from St. Patty's Day? Okay, well we've been talking and what not, but I find him odd. He showed up on Friday. Interesting. He always wears a fedora! What the heck?! So, instead of Alex, we refer to him as Fedora. I thought he was a blast on St. Patty's Day, but that could have been due to the liquid that was consumed. Maybe...I'm just saying.

Friday night, on the walk home, I call my grandma. Yes, it was 4 a.m., and people are amazed when I tell them this, but I always call her! Well, Friday was a blast! So, on the way home, I decide that it's cold, so I start running. Yes, running down the street in heels, with two really big bags around my arms. Grandma, "Ashley, what the hell are you running for?" Me, "Because I'm cold!" Hahaha! You had to be there! It's 4 o'clock and I'm running home!

Friday, at Better Homes, was really hard. I hated walking out of Meredith Corporation for the last time. I loved it there, and I really became a part of their family! I can't tell you how much I appreciate the women I worked with. They are brilliant, fun, and great to be around! I can't thank them enough for everything they have done for me. They did tell me if a job opens up, they're calling me! ;) One of my editors "took me shopping" Friday. Which means, she gave me the cutest beach bag and took me shopping in our beauty closet! It was so much fun! She geared me up with products perfect for the Florida sun! I'm going to be one sun-kissed beach babe! ;)

We went to brunch at HK Hell's Kitchen! Oh my gosh! Amazing! I had lobster eggs benedict, that was incredible! Then, the rest of the weekend was spent packing and catching up with friends. Saturday, my apartment is basically empty. No bed, no chair, nothing. What do I sleep on? The hardwood floor. No fun! It was probably the most uncomfortable ever. I got no sleep. My back hurts. And my arm was numb from propping up my head all night.

I was walking around Times Square, and my neighborhood, taking everything in for the last time. When I walked through Times Square, everyday, I started to take it for granted. All of the beautiful lights, humungous billboards, and rush of people. Okay, the rush of people I can easily do without! I went to the restaurant one last time tonight to say good-bye to Kara. I had so much fun! All of us laughed and joked! We are all extremely sarcastic, so you can only imagine! Imagine my blog, times ten! Yea, I know! Funny mayhem!

Sunday, I really cried. Not in front of anyone, so that's an improvement! I almost cried leaving the restaurant, but I held back until I got home. I loved working at the restaurant! For the most part, everyone was fantastic! Give or take a couple of people, but you get that everywhere! ;) I had a lot of great experiences there, saw a TON of awesome people, and made some great friends! How many people can say they saw Dan Marino every Saturday? Or Rodney Harrison? Or Reba McEntire? Or Blake Shelton? Or Dennis Dixon? Or Willie Parker? Or Reverend Al Sharpton? And on and on. Not many people.

When I got to my apartment, to walk out for the last time, I really started to cry. Leaving New York City is a lot harder than I ever imagined it would be. This is the first place, I really made my home. It's been an emotional roller coaster, but was worth every tear, every ounce of sweat, and every wrinkle I created by worrying over nothing! ;) You know in the movies, when people move out and they do flashbacks of the memories? That's what I did. I have done and seen so much the last six months! I've definitely grown as a woman. I figured out what I wanted, but like everyone, am still wondering what else is out there!

I want to thank all of the great people I have met here in the city. Without their help and guidance, I would not be the new person I am today. The person I used to be about two years ago, but better! A happy, organized, controlled, funny, and sassy woman! Being around such independent and driven people has really made me realize my potential, and made me want to strive and reach that potential I just realized I have! As much as New Yorkers have the reputation of being rude and obnoxious, they can be thoughtful and caring as well. Not very often, but the people I associated myself with are the best I could have asked for! I wish them nothing but the best, and I know I will see them soon!

I got a hotel room for tonight, per my father and grandmother's request/concern. Hey, if dad says it's okay, then I'm all over it! ;) I hop in a cab, and let me tell you, my last NYC cab experience was perfect! We're driving and I tell him I need to go to a hotel near JFK. I told him which one and he said okay. Not only did he ask me for the address 400 times, but we also drove around Queens for about 45 minutes trying to find it. All the while, he's beating on the steering wheel, like it's a drum, and turning his hand around the wheel as if he's turning a corner; as he's staring at me through the rearview mirror. I thought, Great! My last night in New York City, and I'm going to get killed. He's not taking me to the hotel. I'm going to end up in an alley. I tell ya' what. 

He told me 30 times, I look like his cousin. "She's Indian," he says. Me: "Really? I didn't know Indians had blonde hair." Him: "She doesn't." Me: "Oh, but she looks like me?" Him: "Yes. Her face, her height, her body type." Excuse me, sir. It creeps me out that you are checking me out, "inconspicuously," while you're driving. Can you please focus on the road? I would like to get to Florida in one piece. Then, he asked if I had any siblings. Really? Again, you're a creeper. I'm normally a chatter box, but not with people that are weird. I'm always willing to strike up a convo, but if I feel you're doing it for ulterior motives, forget about it. You don't need to know about my life.

I tell him I have one brother. Him: "How old is he?" Me: "He's 30. He's my older, very protective older brother." I say things like this, like it's going to freakin' matter! Hehe! It's worth a shot! After 45 minutes, he says, "Let me get my GPS." Excuse me, what?? You've basically just shown me all of Queens and we could have avoided the 30-minute detour, but no. Did you forget about your Magellan? Come on, now! I mean, I know I'm good company, but this is ridiculous! ;) Just kidding!

I get to the hotel, which is really nice! I'm on the phone, when all of a sudden, the fire alarms go off. Perfect. Just what I need. Do I fall for it and go outside? No. I'm staying put. It stops after a bit. I figure, I'm close enough to the ground, that if there was a fire, I would just jump out the window! ;)

Note to self: Before you can succeed, you need to realize your potential. When your potential used to be something you questioned, don't. Never question the great things you are able to achieve! When numerous people tell you, you are a great person and worker, believe them! You have so many great people in your life, who have taught you SO much, that your potential just magnified! When you keep hearing, "Does Boca know how lucky they are to have you?" take it in and be thankful that so many people appreciate you and care about you!

Too many people take themselves for granted. Stop! You are fabulous and can do anything you set your mind to! Don't be afraid to take chances! Look at how many chances I've taken! Too many to count! Sometimes, not thinking about something, turns out to be the best decision you've ever made. And sometimes, when you do think about something too much, maybe that's a sign, it's not meant to be. Don't think so much about "What should I do?" or "What do you think is best?" Only you can decide that! If you want to move, move! If you want to go back to school, go back! Nothing is impossible!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Day 200

March 22, 2010

This time next week I will be in Florida! Yay! But sad face. I was walking around today, taking in New York, just like I did when I first moved here. The big 99 cent fry sign; the crazy man, talking out loud, to himself, about his momma; and how fantastic my apartment building really is. I never just looked around and what I had in front of me. It's true when they say, you never really realize what you lost, until it's gone. I cried today. Ah geeze! It's starting already!

Tomorrow is my last day I will see my editor. Ugh! I'm not looking forward to it. So, I just keep thinking about my day I will be spending in Harlem tomorrow! Eek! It's going to be fabulous! Everyone is nervous for me. Little do they know, this little, white, blonde girl has a piece of black in her heart! ;) Mom, I'll be fine! Grandma, I'll come out alive! =)

I got some more of my furniture items sold today! Slowly, but surely. If I don't get them sold, they're going to a homeless shelter I found today. It's for battered and abused, homeless women. It's a pretty fabulous website! And the women running it seem delightful!

Dancing With the Stars premiered tonight! Did you watch it? The cast is fantastic! For the most part, they're all really talented and fun to watch! Who's your favorite?? My favorite guy is the football player--ochio-somethin', somethin! For the women, I like Nicole and Niecy. Niecy is hysterical! Aiden is hott! Rhonda doesn't agree with me. However, I'm pretty sure if I brought him home, she wouldn't complain! I don't care what you say, mom! ;) Actually, my favorite guy is Buzz. Is he just not the cutest man you've ever seen?? I voted for him!

Well. That's the extent of my day. Exciting, huh? Yeah, I know.

Note to self: Make sure to always check out your entire surroundings. When you walk into Cafe Metro to get an everyday bagel, then you actually take the time to look around, you discover an oatmeal bar! How neat is this?! You get your choice of five different types of oatmeal, plus two toppings. Granola and strawberries make for some uber-tasty oatmeal! So cool!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Day 146

January 27, 2010

Ohhhh today. What a day. Here is my pattern: home to work all day-run home to get clothes-go to west village for a meeting-back uptown to work until close-then back home. Nuts! My menu for the day: a Grande bold coffee for breakfast, cupcake for lunch, a half a cookie for dinner. I'm so tired, I don't even feel like eating. However, this morning I'm thinking. You know those stir sticks at Starbucks? How germy do you think those things are? Think of how many people put their hands on them a day! Tons! And you have no idea where those hands have been! Then you take one and stir your cream and sugar with it. So gross! I decide, I am no longer going to use these convenient wooden stir utensils.

So, my Gmail has been way off lately. My grandma sent me an e-mail Monday morning, and I got it today. The e-mail said it was sent "22 hours" ago. So, if you sent me an e-mail and got no response, more than likely, I didn't get it! First the phone, now the e-mail! My lines of communication are slowly taking a turn for the worse! ;)

We all love summer and look forward to it when October hits! Well, this year, we can also look forward to the clothes and accessories! The styles for summer and so fun! Flowy, flirty, light, and airy! The colors could be a bit brighter, but I only see a certain selection, so maybe there are more brights out there! In the next couple of days, BHG is going to be getting in so many new things, I can't wait to see it all! And I organize it all and make account for it when it comes in, so I love to check everything out! The jewelry is awesome! Funky rings, big bracelets, chunky necklaces! So awesome! I play dress up! ;)

I have a plan of getting into bed by ten o'clock tonight. My hopes are quickly shot down at 10:30 this morning when my co-worker calls me and asks me to fill in for her. She is really sick--poor thing. Having the flu is no fun!!! I don't mind filling in. It's extra money!! Whew! So, I have to leave my internship early so I can go home and get black clothes--and I'm in a hurry! So, of course, I power walk home. But you know how it is--I power walk the whole avenue, then have to stop. The light changes. Then I take off and power walk. Then have to hault. The light turns red. This happens for eight avenues! That equals out to 1.5 miles! Can you believe I walk at LEAST three miles everyday?? It's good exercise, I suppose.

So, I'm still in a hurry and head to the train station. I swear, I walk through the subway for what feels like twenty minutes to find my dang train! I'm getting really nervous because I don't want to be late! I hate being late! It's my biggest pet peeve! Unless you have a really good reason for being late, there's no excuse for it. It's so irritating. If I'm late, you know there's a good reason! Anyways, the subway is interesting tonight. I see a drag queen, a really good band, some pretty B.A. break dancers! Once off my 14th Street exit, I'm even more flustered because I can't find my way out. I pass the exit because I'm distracted by a homeless, drunk man who is making art with his motorized scooter on pieces of white, computer paper. His heads down, flopping from side to side, as he puts the scooter in drive. Then reverse. Then drive. Then reverse. Haha! The art is very...interesting...to say the least.

I get to the west village and instantly fall in love. It's totally my scene-- it's clean, it's trendy, it's neighborhood-y! It's fantastic! If I get a job here, this is where I'm moving!!! The streets are cobblestone and the restaurants remind you of your favorite restaurant on the corner in your home town. Places where everyone knows everyone. In the city, neighborhoods like these are great to be a part of! The meeting went well!

When I first get to work, it's a bit chaotic. Then it slows way down. I'm standing at the host stand, when all of a sudden I smell fire. Again...me with fire. My space heater isn't what smells. It's not Beba in the coat room. My manager comes up and I say, "Do you smell something?" My manager's response, "Um, yeah, the lady on 23 lit her hair on fire!" Hahahahaha! Oh my God, that's hysterical!!! Her and her man were leaning over the table, smoochin' on each other, and poof! Up in flames!

I can tell you right now, I'm going to need some serious coffee tomorrow! I'm going to stock up all day! It's going to be a long one! I have my internship, then the restaurant, then out to dinner for restaurant week! Whew hew! We're trying Scandinavian food. Never had it, so I'm pretty excited! Then back on Friday morning at the internship. I'm only 25, but feel like I'm 60 right now! This is no good, people!

Note to self: "Never save something for a special occasion. Everyday in your life is a special occasion!" When your co-worker tells you about how her relative was killed in 9/11 and left behind his wife, new born baby, and two other kids, it makes you appreciate your family. When you find out your neighbor from back home has been diagnosed with leukemia, it makes you thankful you and your loved ones are healthy! When you find out an old friend's brother is diagnosed with the same kind of cancer, it makes you want to call the ones you love and tell them what they mean to you. When another kid from your high school commits suicide, you wonder what was going on in their mind.

Tragedies happen everyday and you don't want to look back and say, "Only if I would have told them this." or "I wish I would have told them this." or "If they only knew how I really felt." Always express how you feel because when it's too late. It's too late. Put yourself out there. Tell the people you love in your life how you really feel. What if you never get the chance to do so? What if tomorrow is too late? You never know. Then you'll be mad at yourself. Why do you want regrets?

Never go to bed mad at someone. Never leave the house mad at someone. Never hang up the phone in a fight. Life is too short. Time is too precious. My goal for you for the day: call someone today and tell them how much they mean to you. Even to just say, "Hey, hope your day's great! I love you." Just randomly. That's the best kind of phone call! Trust me, the person on the other end of the phone will appreciate it! Heck! Call three people! Just appreciate the people who love you and are a big part of your life and who you are!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Day 130

January 11, 2010

Before you leave your house in the morning, do you really look at yourself? I mean, really and truly evaluate how you look in your clothes? Some people should. I am all for expressing yourself through clothing and accessories, but when your booty looks like a bowl of cottage cheese on stilts, you may want to reconsider. ;) And I always feel bad for these people, especially when their weave looks like a tornado whipped through it and the other half got blown away. Self-expression is great, but so is self-awareness!

Today is a pretty low key day. I go to BH&G, then head to The Capital Grille. I'm thinking to myself, I have nothing to write about today. Aha! But then I remember. I pass the firehouse this morning and I get really excited because the door is open and I hear men playing with mechanical toys-they like to call them chainsaws. I look at the muscular bodies bent over on the cement, only to find two middle-aged men--not my hunka, hunka, burnin' love. So sad.

So, I'm walking to work with my iPod, where only one earphone works, so I'm a total gangster with one in my ear and the other hanging down by my side. It's pretty B.A. Only to add to my ghetto-fabulousness, "Gangter's Paradise" starts playing in my ears! Haha! I start laughing out loud because it reminds me of the Iowa State Fair. Coolio came to perform and I told my friend, Tim, that I was taking him to a concert, but didn't tell him which one for fear that he would all of a sudden, "have something to do." However, when he finds out it's Coolio, he's all about it. So, we go and meet up with my brother and one of his friends. Okay, I have never seen so many white people at a rap concert before. I'm pretty sure the only other black people were his "entourage," or whatever you call them. Ha! AND...every white person there thought they were black for about an hour and a half! It was great! Brett, his buddy, and Tim...I could have sworn they were born dark-skinned--bouncing up and down, lips pushed out, and one hand in the air, pumping it up and down with their palm facing down. You know what I'm talking about! LOL! Good times!

I did get the pleasure of seeing my doorman. Oh, let me tell you, I am so embarrassed, I don't even look up until the last possible minute that I have to. He greets me with a huge smile and a, "HEY! What are you doin?!" I respond with, "Hey, I just got off of work." I kind of continue to keep walking. He says, "Yeah, can you believe this weather?" I say, "I know it's freezing!" Then...it's the awkward silence, where we both just stand there and stare at each other, waiting for the other person to speak the next sentence. I say, "Alright, well have a great night! I'll see ya' later!" He says, "Oh, okay, goodnight!" Yikes! Why am I always like a little school girl when it comes to attractive men? Stupid! And he's my doorman! I can't do that! Do you know how awkward this would be? Bad idea! Just a bad, bad idea!

Well, this is the extent of my excitement for the day. I know it's hard to contain yourself, but I suppose not everyday can be filled with funny and mildly inappropriate behavior. I do behave myself 99 percent of the time! I do like to make my parents proud of me! ;)

Note to self: "Smile, it is the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart." - Anthony DiAngelo
This quote fits into my everyday thinking and my all-time favorite quote of, "Smile, you never who's watching." ;) It's great! Who doesn't love when you get a smile from a random stranger on the street? It makes you feel good! I always smile at people-who knows if that smile made their day, or if it turned their bad morning into an okay morning. A lot can be said about a smile. It gives people a glimpse into your personality and who you really are. Are you sassy? Are you sincere? Are you outgoing? ;) It's a powerful thing, and it's so simple to throw around. Why frown and get all wrinkly? Smiling not only makes you feel better, but could make the stranger walking past you feel better too! ;)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Day 108 - Day 109

December 21 - December 22

Do you ever wonder how people's mornings start off? I do. When I leave my apartment after I've been really crying all morning, I look at people and think, I wonder how their morning's going? I wonder about the fashionable, older woman walking down the street--did she have a bad morning? Or what about the couple holding hands? Did they have a hot and steamy morning? =) Or what about the two angry looking women at Magnolia Bakery? I can already answer that question for you. It's so interesting because every one is so different, yet we all have the same daily routine. Wake up, go to work, eat lunch, work some more, have dinner, go home, go to sleep.

So, today starts off not so great. Sallie Mae really knows how to ruin a day! I hate them! And I'm really stressed out that I'm going to get stuck in Chicago O'Hare airport on Christmas Day! I'm going to spend it with a bunch of random strangers at the bar! Not really what I want to do! So, please keep your fingers crossed that I make it home!

Better Homes & Garden is great today! I got my editor's Papyrus cards, which are the best cards ever made, and some Magnolia Cupcakes! They were so cute! They were decorated with Christmas candies and red and green frosting. They are the best cupcakes ever! And they got me a gift! It was so sweet of them and the gift was amazing! I got a bracelet, a little clutch, and some cards that had "xoxo" on them. Plus, a really sweet card! It made my day!

Then, I go to my other job. I just want to start off by saying that I cannot wait to come home and get a break from this city! It has been four months of an emotional roller coaster and I need to get away. I know I have tons of support from back home, but it's different not having anyone here with you. So, I've dealt with all of this negative, positive, good, and bad energy by myself. It's emotionally and physically draining. I have been so on edge and just so snippy. I need some Midwestern hospitality...stat!

So, I'm working and taking people to their tables when a server comes up to me and lets me have it. He is such a dick and being so serious about criticizing me on how I'm doing my job. As I walk away he says, "Ash...I'm just kidding." My response, "Patrick, I don't find this funny and you are going to make my cry. I'm not even kidding." So, what do I do? I go up front, with tears in my eyes, and tell Morgan, "I'll be back. I just need a minute." I go into the coat room and start to cry. I am such a baby! This moment right here tells me I definitely need a break! I never just randomly cry like this; I'm usually pretty strong, so this is just verification to me. He felt really bad, but I wasn't mad at him. I couldn't be--he was kidding! We joked around later and everything was okay.

I start nodding off at the counter because I am so exhausted--in more than one way! I finally get to go home at 11:00! When I get home, I start writing my blog and about 30 minutes later, I wake up, with my hands on the keyboard. I fell asleep while typing! So, I crawled into bed and woke up in the same position I went to sleep in!

So, after an exhausting day, everything was great and I'm ready for a new day!

Note to self: When you're in a snippy mode, still try and be nice to people. You'll regret it later if you're not nice. It's not their fault you're having a bad day or are exhausted. Maybe they're having a bad day too! And I bet they're probably just as tired as you are! If they do something to irritate you, walk away. Don't say anything, just smile and turn around to walk away. It's the logical thing to do. It's not worth it to make up for it later. Plus, who wants to apologize and admit you did something wrong? Not me! So, just be pleasant and avoid any confrontation that isn't necessary to take place from the get go!

Read the post below! It's about my friend, Caitlin, and mine's trip from last weekend! We had so much fun! Enjoy!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Day 101

December 15, 2009

One hundred days of living in New York City!!! Oh yeah!! Did you think I would make it? To all you doubters...well...I did! Ha! It's been a whirlwind, that's for sure! I've never been such an emotional wreck in my whole entire life these last four months than I have been since I've moved here. I feel like I'm slightly bi-polar or something. No, I'm just kidding. But I will tell you, this city tests your personality and maturity. It makes you realize how strong of a person you are, your strengths, most definitely your weaknesses, and whether or not you have what it takes to hack it out here. It's an emotional struggle, but it's a true test of character and can only make you a better person!

I haven't even seen a quarter of what this city has to offer and I'm in love. So, what did I do to celebrate my 100th day here? Not a whole hell of a lot. I work from 9 a.m. until 11 p.m. Exciting, huh? I will tell you, my internship is amazing today! My two editor's have their "beauty sale." I can't even tell you. I'm like a little girl at Barbie World! There is so much there and for a ridiculously cheap price tag. I'm talking $1 to $5 here! Needless to say, I go hog wild, stock up, and get some pretty great Christmas gifts! Oh yea!

So, everyone knows I have two jobs. One of my jobs, which shall remain nameless, really ticks me off today. I have a question...would you reprimand only one of two employees who did something wrong? And in front of other people? Probably not. I would at least hope not. I would hope you would have the decency and common respect to make it professional and take it to a private place. And if you're going to reprimand me...be fair, and reprimand the other person as well. We are both at fault. At least I'm adult enough to admit it.

Let's back up. I am human. As much as I like to think I'm perfect, I'm not. ;) I hate to break it to you and I know it's hard for people to believe this, but I will make mistakes. I know. Close your mouths. It does happen! ;) Don't talk to me like I'm an idiot.

So, here in the city, men like to holler after you as you walk down the street. As I'm walking home tonight, a man hollers after me. I ignore it, of course, because I'm not going to answer to, "Hey gorgeous, how you doin?" I got to thinking...are these people used to hollering after women and being ignored? After a while, wouldn't it get old to be constantly rejected? Haha! Or do most women actually stop and talk to these men? I find it comical. What am I suppose to say? "Oh hey, baby. What's your name? Want to go out? Can I ride on the spokes of your bike?" Sounds hott, right? Maybe I should try it. Yea, right! With my luck, I'll end up dead somewhere! I think I'll continue to ignore it.

I get to sleep in until 7:30 tomorrow morning! I'm so excited! And I don't have to work at the restaurant tomorrow night! Yay!!! I have a lot of wrapping to do after all of my great buys today! I love Christmas! Goodnight blog world! Until tomorrow.

Note to self: Kill people with kindness. It's a great satisfaction to be nice, (not fake), and know that the other person is just dying inside! The people, who are most irritating to you, are probably not happy people, so they feed off other people's negative energy. Just like I said yesterday, take your negative energy and turn it into something positive.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Day 100

December 14, 2009

Today proves to be a much better day than yesterday. No tears caressing my cheeks, no soaking wet clothes, and no more negative nelly! The morning, however, I can't say is the best. I still wake up in a dramatically bad mood. I am such a drama queen sometimes, I get irritated with myself. I actually think that's the majority of my problem. I realize how ridiculous I am, but by the time I do, I'm already too far into my argument, that I'm so annoyed with my attitude and I don't know how to get out of it. I just need time, I guess. So, I want to apologize to my family, who had to hear me, essentially bitch, yesterday. It was completely unnecessary, but thanks for listening! It helps!

I call my dad. He gives me really good advice, as always, which makes me feel better. Everyone in my family gives me good advice, but as we all know, we take everyone's advice differently. So, now I'm out of my bad mood. Once again, I go to The Capital Grille to work, and I forgot I changed around my schedule with Kara, so I don't work. This is the second time I do this! I guess I love my job so much, I always want to be there! ;) No, it really is a great place to work!

Now, I'm on a mission for a Christmas gift. Every year since I was in the fourth grade, my family and I have done what's called, Secret Santa's. My mom, dad, brother, and I draw a name and we get our "Santa" a $15 gift. Something that's fun. This year, I have a great gift! I obviously can't tell you who I have, but my gift is pretty awesome! And the wrapping...get out of town! It's totally original. So, we all know how I'm the cheapest person alive. I refuse to spend $4 on wrapping paper. So, I use old magazines, and painter's tape (because I don't have regular tape, nor do I want to spend $2 on it at the drugstore), and go to town! Remember in 2nd grade, when you would cut letters out of a magazine and glue them together to make words? Well, that's what I did for my gift tag! Haha! It's awesome! Good idea, huh? I have taken cheap and poor to the extreme. But I like to look at it as creative, not cheap. It's more authentic this way! ;)

My apartment looks fabulous! I cleaned it from top to bottom, all while baking cookies and listening to Pandora Christmas music, of course! Watch out, I'm turning into a real life Suzy Homemaker! Someday, I will make a pretty cool mom and wife! I got the itch for a kid the other day at The Capital Grille. Crazy, right? I was a little petrified myself when the feeling came over me! A family came in and there was about 12 people in their party. They had grandma, grandpa, aunt, uncle, etc. There was a little boy, I'd say about four years old, dressed in a navy blue peacoat, with combed over hair. Oh my God, he was cute! All I could think of was, I want my little boy to look like this when I have one. I fell in love. And he wanted to follow me into the room, so I escorted him. When we got to the room, he looked and me and said, "Thank you, ma'am." Sweet Jesus, melt my heart. Then he introduced himself with his big brown eyes staring right at me as his tiny hand shook mine. I wanted to take him home.

Quickly, the feeling ended when the next family came in and their kids were running all over the place, screaming like maniacs! It was then that I realized, my children will be "those kids" who are holy terrors! I will be blessed with the pleasure of taking care of little heathens! No cute peacoats for them. They will probably want to wear spandex and over sized Teletubbies sweatshirts. ;)

Tomorrow is the massive beauty sale at my internship! I am stocking up and loading up beauty supplies on the cheap! Whew hew! It's Christmas shopping on the fly!

I will have you know, I have not turned on the television once tonight. It's quite nice! I talked with my best guy friend, Greg, tonight. He is so funny, but going through a rough break up right now. I went through the same thing in June as he did, so I can relate to what he's going through. It's no fun. And he is absolutely crazy about this girl. She screwed up a good thing. He is such a great person and she took advantage of that. I don't understand people. Sounds all too familiar to me. Listen to what he did.

He told her he was going to take her to the best restaurant in Salt Lake City (that's where he lives). He turns his apartment into a mini restaurant! He cooks her dinner and even goes into the bathroom to change clothes from a waiter, to her date, to a cook! How sweet is that? And for Christmas...he made her a book of pictures of all of the goofy things they've done together and cool places they've gone! It's great! Only if I can find someone to do nice things like this for me! Some guys don't understand that it's the little things in life that matter. This dinner he made for her is so much better than a fancy shmancy restaurant any where in the world. Take note, fellas!

Note to self: Take negative energy and turn it into something positive. Why waste time on something you know isn't going to work out? Focus your time and energy on what's important in your life right now. You don't get this time back. When you are faced with a challenge, face it with confidence and courage. Don't be afraid to look at the challenge, delete it from your memory, and move on. When someone tells you to forget about it. Forget about it. They're right. The hurt and frustration you're going through isn't worth all the heartache. When you realize you do have so much going for you and there is better out there, take that ammo and push through it. It's not easy, by no means, but it can only make you stronger and make your ambitious drive that much harder. (Thanks dad! ;) )

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Day 94

December 8, 2009

The thing I keep thinking about today...the Iowa blizzard. I can't believe you guys are getting 14 inches of snow! That's not normal! My mom says her boss may not have them come into the office tomorrow. It's an adult's snow day! I want one! I want a day off to make snowmen, drink hot chocolate, and sleep! How amazing does this sound? However, as much as it sounds nice, I don't want any snow. I have to walk in the stuff! No thanks!

Speaking of walking. I'm walking to work and all I can think about is how I want the bagel from that guys sack and how I want to buy those M&Ms at the newsstand. Damn, diets suck! I didn't buy them! And I did good today! Minus the cookies from Meredith Corp. They were pretty tasty! Better Homes & Garden was great, as usual! I'm looking forward to tomorrow because I get to spend a large part of my day in the clothes closet, organizing the Spring 2010 looks for upcoming issues! Totally my element! I can't wait!

The Capital Grille is also great as usual! Due to the holiday season, and the fact that people are actually realizing our restaurant is at this location (TCG has only been open at this location since May), we have been extremely busy! It's so great! I love being busy!

Note to self: Read Brett's blogs! He is more comical than I am. You will enjoy his take on the adventures of his New York trip out here! I've posted the first four, and will post the rest tomorrow. It's interesting reading about other people's thoughts and experiences. You always figure they're thinking this way, or that way. Then you realize, what you thought they were thinking...they weren't thinking that way at all. So far, a couple of things have thrown me off--Brett just didn't want to hurt my feelings. That's sweet of him! What a great kid! The most intuitive and intelligent person I've ever met.

When he tells you, "Ashley, you weren't happy. I could tell. I watched you when no one else was looking. You didn't have the spark in your eyes." Wow! Who would have thought my brother, or a guy for that matter, would pay attention and notice that stuff?! When he tells you his opinion on what he thinks will happen...more than likely, he's right. More people need to be like him. Sit back, relax, and just take everything in. You learn so much that way. Really pay attention to people. Look at their smile--is it real or is it plastered on their face for show? Watch their body language--is someone forcing an action to make the situation seem better than it really is? Listen to them talk--does someone sound too nervous to talk to the opposite sex, or do they sound completely confident? Just a thought. Maybe if more people took the time to be intuitive, more things could be figured out!

READ THE NEXT FOUR BLOGS! THEY'RE THE BEGINNING OF BRETT'S!

Day 93

December 8, 2009

The thing I keep thinking about today...the Iowa blizzard. I can't believe you guys are getting 14 inches of snow! That's not normal! My mom says her boss may not have them come into the office tomorrow. It's an adult's snow day! I want one! I want a day off to make snowmen, drink hot chocolate, and sleep! How amazing does this sound? However, as much as it sounds nice, I don't want any snow. I have to walk in the stuff! No thanks!

Speaking of walking. I'm walking to work and all I can think about is how I want the bagel from that guys sack and how I want to buy those M&Ms at the newsstand. Damn, diets suck! I didn't buy them! And I did good today! Minus the cookies from Meredith Corp. They were pretty tasty! Better Homes & Garden was great, as usual! I'm looking forward to tomorrow because I get to spend a large part of my day in the clothes closet, organizing the Spring 2010 looks for upcoming issues! Totally my element! I can't wait!

The Capital Grille is also great as usual! Due to the holiday season, and the fact that people are actually realizing our restaurant is at this location (TCG has only been open at this location since May), we have been extremely busy! It's so great! I love being busy!

Note to self: Read Brett's blogs! He is more comical than I am. You will enjoy his take on the adventures of his New York trip out here! I've posted the first four, and will post the rest tomorrow. It's interesting reading about other people's thoughts and experiences. You always figure they're thinking this way, or that way. Then you realize, what you thought they were thinking...they weren't thinking that way at all. So far, a couple of things have thrown me off--Brett just didn't want to hurt my feelings. That's sweet of him! What a great kid! The most intuitive and intelligent person I've ever met.

When he tells you, "Ashley, you weren't happy. I could tell. I watched you when no one else was looking. You didn't have the spark in your eyes." Wow! Who would have thought my brother, or a guy for that matter, would pay attention and notice that stuff?! When he tells you his opinion on what he thinks will happen...more than likely, he's right. More people need to be like him. Sit back, relax, and just take everything in. You learn so much that way. Really pay attention to people. Look at their smile--is it real or is it plastered on their face for show? Watch their body language--is someone forcing an action to make the situation seem better than it really is? Listen to them talk--does someone sound too nervous to talk to the opposite sex, or do they sound completely confident? Just a thought. Maybe if more people took the time to be intuitive, more things could be figured out!

READ THE NEXT FOUR BLOGS! THEY'RE THE BEGINNING OF BRETT'S!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Day 92

December 7, 2009

Happy Birthday to my great grandma, Gracie! I am exhausted. I hit the snooze for an hour this morning! I am fighting my eyelids all day long, sitting at my computer! Work is fun today, though! I get to watch the editor's pick what items they want for upcoming stories. They're going to be really fun! Everyone should subscribe to Better Homes & Garden and at www.bhg.com. I'm a member and let me yell ya'...the recipes that are e-mailed to you. Whew! Forget about it! They look amazing! Plus, all of the helpful fashion, beauty, and home decor tips. It's a fun website!

I actually have a plan to go get an exercise DVD after work. Yea...didn't happen. I will, eventually. I'm thinking Tae Bo. I know it's old school, but it's one heck of a workout! Test it out. You'll be either thanking me or hating me the next day because your butt cheeks haven't quit twitching from all of the leg exercises!

Winter is here people! I don't like it one bit. However, we don't have snow, just yet. All you Iowans need to keep it to yourselves. For once in your life, don't share! Don't be your Midwestern, hospitable selves. We don't want it! My friend Renee sends me a picture today via e-mail. It's pretty, but no fun to walk around in.



I get home from work to a lovely box of Christmas decorations from my Aunt Tammy. It's great! I didn't think I would have any this year, but I do and I'm loving them! We talk for an hour and a half and have one hell of a heart to heart! We talk about life, love, and the pursuit of happiness. It's a nice conversation two single woman can have together on a Monday evening! I love it! Tammy tells me of this new coffee shop kind of over by Drake's campus. I don't know what it's called, but she loves coffee more than I do, so I think we're going to go when I'm back!

If you aren't on Pandora.com, you should be a member! I always create new music stations and rock out all the time. Since I have yet to put up curtains, my neighbors probably think I'm nuts! There goes the crazy naked girl dancing around her apartment again at ten o'clock at night, is what I'm sure they are saying! Okay...I don't really dance around naked. I'm sure they've seen me naked plenty of times, but whatever. I sometimes like to air dry after I shower. I hate putting on clothes when my body is damp! No worries--it's nothing they haven't seen before. I told my mom tonight I should leave a tip jar on my balcony. It would make for good rent money! She has to be so proud of her only daughter! ;) And now dad knows where all his money went for dance lessons all of those years! Thanks dad! You're the best!

Right now, I have a little Trans Siberian Orchestra Christmas mix going on with my Pandora! I would love to see them in person. I have heard it's unbelievable! You know what I miss? Delilah and Lite 104.1 Christmas station. Delilah always solves the world's problems with the swift stroke of a finger. I'm not saying I have problems right now, (even though Lord knows I probably do;) ), I enjoy hearing the stories.

Dieting sucks! You think you're eating so healthy--a turkey sandwich and banana for dinner, and an apple and a turkey salad for lunch. Okay, and a Special K breakfast bar. Just that...800 calories! Are you kidding me?? What happens if you're still hungry and your stomach hurts? I guess just suck it up? Why can't everyone be fat or skinny? Life would be so much easier!

Please keep the Bosley family in your prayers this evening for a sad loss in their family. Grandpa was a great man and the cutest little guy I've ever seen! They should be proud to call him family--and they most definitely are!

I told myself I'm going to be in bed by ten and guess what? It's actually going to happen! Oh yes! I am going to be one of those lame-o's who is in bed early! I'm okay with that. I need my beauty rest!

I want to give you a quick update on the hottie firefighter by my work. I bet you just got really excited for me. Well...nothing has happened. I'm thinking the same thing...darn it! I haven't seen him since I last told you about the magical moment we locked eyes and he says, "Hey, how's it goin'?" (Sigh). I spoke too soon!

Note to self: Don't drink and drive. It's so stupid! I heard about the two kids getting killed in a drunk driving accident back home. It's completely unnecessary. Driving 115 mph? Really? Even sober, that's just beyond stupid! People don't understand what it does to families. Even though you're shaking your head right now, you have no idea. I don't either. After working at a funeral home and seeing the repercussions of a totaled car and what it does to your body, then having to watch these families look at their loved one like that? No way. It's traumatizing, maddening, and disappointing. How hard is it to pick up the phone and call to get a ride? So, you don't want to get in trouble? Well...now you're dead. I'd rather be grounded for a month and have my life. Don't let fear get in the way of living.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Day 78

November 23, 2009


Needless to say, Monday is brutal for me. I’m running on about ten hours of sleep the whole weekend and I have an interview in the morning, work at BHG all day, then go to The Capital Grille to work at night. Yeah, I know. It was awful! Stay tuned for Brett’s blog on his adventures of his Monday. He got to sleep in. Bastard.

The interview went well. I didn’t get the job. It was for a PR company that my boss from BHG referred me to. I have no experience in PR whatsoever, but my boss is great and is giving me interview experience and possibilities for paying jobs! She’s fabulous! I’m just hoping something at BHG comes up, to where I can take a position there! Again, please keep your fingers crossed for me!

The Capital Grille was great, as usual. They let me out early (9p.m.), which is fantastic and Brett meets me so we can go get a little Street Meat Monday. I just made that up, but it sounds cool, doesn’t it? =) What’s street meat you ask? Only the best gyros in the country! The place we went too; however, served it to you in platter form. So much better than gyro form. For six bucks, you get a large tin with lettuce and tomato blanketing the bottom, a heaping amount of lamb meet on top, with hot sauce, greek sauce, and pita bread! Amazing. I can’t even tell you. You will have to come out and visit to see for yourself!
After this, we just kind of hang out. Physically, I cannot move. I am so tired, an after eating such a fantastic, yet filling meal, I pretty much pass out immediately.

Note to self: Even if you’re not out doing something, sometimes hanging out with family at home is something enough. Enjoy the down time you have with family, because that’s when you can truly catch up on life and everything important that’s been going on. All the crazies this city produces do not distract you; you’re not dodging the slow pokes; and you’re not shouting over crowds. It’s nice to catch up in a quiet place and just have down time. Hanging out is one of the best things you can do in your life. This is when you really get to know what’s going on in someone’s life. And with a surprisingly, extremely insightful brother, you can really learn a lot about yourself, your past situations, and the outlook of your future.

CONTINUE READING ON TO LATER POSTS! ONCE YOU HIT DAY 84, YOU'RE ALL CAUGHT UP!!! ;) THANKS FOR BEING PATIENT!

Monday, November 30, 2009

Day 85

November 30, 2009

HELLO BLOGWORLD!!! Long time no talk!!! I apologize for my absence, but the last ten days have been one big ball of eating, drinking, sight seeing, causing havoc in the city, and creating never-to-forget memories with my brother! I have yet to find the time to blog about our experiences, but I'm working on the perfect scripts to post. Bear with me, great blogs are in the near future!

After Brett left, I did nothing but sleep! How amazing is that? Bless my boss at The Capital Grille for not scheduling me to work on Sunday! I was lazy and I don't care! As Monday comes, I'm not ready for reality. I miss my college days when responsibility was not in my vocabulary, rent payments were not coming out of my bank account, and the idea of sleeping in is last year's luxury. Oh college is the life! However, I would not trade anything to go back. Homework? Ha! I don't think so!

Better Homes & Garden is fantastic today! More free stuff today! Which means...more Christmas presents for my family and friends! This internship is a poor woman's dream! ;) I have so much anti-aging cream, my family and friends are going to look like they're 20 forever! It's great!

Winter has officially kicked in and my layering has officially begun. My Under Armour Cold Gear I got for my birthday have yet to leave my body! Okay, I have washed them, but the minute I wake up, they go on for the rest of the day! Ashley + cold = I don't think so! My mom says to be a while back, "Ashley, now I want you to run your heat, no matter how much it costs." Don't worry ma! I would rather not eat for a month and be warm!

This is a busy week for me. I have a going away party, the tree lighting in Rockefellar Center, work, birthday party. I like how my social life is starting to pick up out here! Granted, I've only been out here three months, so I have  to give it time. But as you all know, I am not patient. Whatsoever. It's just never been a part of my vocabulary. When I want something, I expect it right away. This is sometimes good, sometimes not so much. But hey, I push the buttons and boundaries until I feel necessary. (Or until it comes to bite me in the butt!) ;)

Note to self: Don't blab about random things. Get to writing about your brother's trip! That's what people are excited to hear about! Don't worry, folks! I promise, within the week, you will be reading about everything we did for the last nine days! Also, you really learn to appreciate what you don't have on a daily basis, when they come to visit. Sure, you ball like a baby when they leave, but it's okay because it means that you miss home and you miss the comfort of those you love. It's not a bad thing, but comforting to know that you have such a great family that is always available to talk to you on the phone, or answer funny e-mails, or spend your birthday and Thanksgiving with you in one of the greatest cities in the world! Love your family and always make sure they know, they are the most important people in your life. Forever.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Day 74

November 19, 2009

So...today. Oh boy, today. Started out good. Better Homes & Garden is great, of course! My boss is amazing! I'm really enjoying myself there! Then...I go to the restaurant.

Now...don't get me wrong! I love working there and the staff is great! Everyone (except two people) are so friendly and fun! The other two...blah! They're the types who are nice when they want to be. If you know me, you know I don't deal well with people like that. You either like me, or you don't. So...since you're not nice the majority of the time, let's just not be friends, okay pumpkin?! Great! Now that we have that established...the guests.

Let me tell ya'! Wealthy people just suck. They have no personality and absolutely no sense of humor. And with all of the money they have, one would think they could afford to purchase a little common sense. When we ask you if a booth is okay and then you get irritated when I take you to a booth, then demand you want a table? Sir! You just told the other hostess you wanted a booth. So...we give him the booth, not the table! Ha! Look where stupidity gets you with me. Nowhere!

Then! When I try and joke with you, please don't look at me like I'm an idiot. You're the one with the dumb ass look on your face--you know the look--lip is pouting out, with the mouth slightly hung open with the droopy eyes? Yeah, that look. And you're looking at me like I'm weird? Hmm...that's all I have to say about that.

Then! We exchange out black napkins for the white ones if guests are wearing dark colored slacks (yes, I just used the word slacks). When you see me changing out the black for the white, please don't take your white napkin, put it in your lap, then act all surprised when I offer to take it away from you. I think you may have missed the part when I said, Excuse me sir, pardon my reach, as I literally reach over you and place a new napkin in front of your wife. Like I said, please buy yourself some common sense and courtesy.

Now, not all wealthy people are snobby and just plain retarded. Most are quite friendly! The ones that tend to be the most dressed up, are the ones that are the friendliest. I talk to my mom (or should I say vent) about this situation. We came to the answer that those who act snobby and rude, are probably the ones with the least amount of money. Maybe like the gentlemen who came in wearing white washed jeans, with a sweatshirt and tennis shoes. His dinner guest was in a suit and actually knew how to use the words, "please" and "thank you." Mr. Time-warp-me-back-to-the-80s apparently missed out on his etiquette classes from the parentals. Don't be rude to me sir. If it wasn't for your sugar daddy, you probably would have never stepped foot in this joint! Keep it real, my friend.

Brett comes tomorrow! Yay! I'm so excited! We have so much planned, it's going to be insane! I can't wait! I need to get some sleep because the next few days are going to non-stop! Good night!

Note to self: Always, always, always carry an umbrella with you in New York City. No matter if the sun is beating down on you, or if it's a simple overcast. For some reason, the clouds like to open up at random moments of the day to shed a few glistening teardrops on this fantastic city. Don't make it to where you have to walk home, in the rain, no umbrella, and are getting soaking wet. I know what you're thinking...take a cab. Are you nuts?! I don't have two dollars to spend on a piece of fruit, let alone ten dollars to get me home. I will walk before that happens. Also, don't walk close to the street. Those cabs will splash you with water. Now, you're just left with wet pants, a wet coat, some wet hair, and smelling like a wet dog. Oohh...any takers on this hot babe I just described? =)

Friday, November 13, 2009

Day 67

November 12, 2009

Okay, well my day starts at 7:30 this morning. It is now 2:03 a.m. and I do not get off work until 1:00 a.m.! What a L.O.N.G. day! I am beat! But I make really good money at coat check. And speaking of which. As a host, I cannot leave until the last coat has been checked back to our guests. The guests, who make me stay TWO HOURS past my end time, tip me NOTHING! WTF?! It's because of your stupid ass that I get out two hours later, and I don't even compensated for it? It's funny because there is only one word that keeps playing over and over and over in my head. F**kers. Ha! That's all I can think of! When you ask me stupid questions like, Oh my God. Like why is the turny door locked? Well, sweetheart. The restaurant closed two hours ago, and the fact that you can't even stand straight because you got too drunk off of your 60-year-old date, please don't start with me. It's not cute. Go smoke your cigarette to curb your appetite!

I have to laugh out loud to myself today at BHG. There is a brand in our books, typed out as, "African-Am Hair Care Products." So, I call the PR agency to see if they still deal with this account. This is how I ask the question, "Hi, my name is Ashley and I'm with Better Homes & Garden http://www.bhg.com/, and I was wondering if you still work with African Hair Care Products?" She replies, "I'm sorry, what company?" I say, "African A.M. Hair Care Products." I literally thought it meant A.M. It is not until about three hours later that I realize the "Am," means American. It's "African American Hair Care Products!" The lady has to think I'm nuts at the PR firm for spelling out Am, as if it were initials! Oh geeze, Ashley!

As I walk to The Capital Grille tonight, I walk past Rockefeller Center. They're putting up the Christmas tree! Oh my gosh! I get so excited!!!! It's going to be so beautiful! And it's huge! I mean, I always knew it was huge from tv, but I'm tellin' ya' what folks...it's absolutely, amazingly large! I tried to get a good picture, but this is the best I can do!

 

So, I know this sounds corny, but I definitely feel official at BHG. I'm in charge of getting products ready for our March issue photo shoot coming up soon. I call the different cosmetic companies and PR agencies and have them send over a specific colored eyeshadow. Watch out for Spring. An "it" color is, in my opinion, surprisingly intriguing, youthful, and edgy! That's not the point. The point is this--look at the picture below!


How cool does this look? My name, plus BHG, on the same label? I love it! I know, I'm nerdy, but hey! It's fun and hopefully someday, I actually get paid to do what I do! ;)

Note to self: Maybe four and a half cups of coffee in one day is a bad idea. Regardless of how tired you are, CLEARLY, your body does not respond at all to caffeine. Could it be because your body already has a high enough dose of energetic chemicals in your system? Or could it be because you are already ADD-like and OCD-like, that the caffeine has an opposite effect? Most people get headaches due to lack of caffeine. I have a massive headache, I think, for too much caffeine.

(The half of a cup is due to a little mishap on my part. When you get free coffee from your apartment building, make sure you find a lid that fits. Going without a lid only causes the coffee to bump up out of your cup, onto the whole lower half of your face, and splash on your favorite scarf. Now...you are a sticky mess! All I'm saying is...make sure it's covered up! That's what she said! Haha! JK mom and dad!)

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Day 59

November 4, 2009

GO Yankees!! Yay for World Series Champs!!!! It's crazy here and I absolutely love it! I can't wait to see what they do to celebrate! Parade? That would be cool!! I wish I could have been there!

It has been one great day! The Yanks, my first day at my internship, and I made some pretty nice tips at the restaurant. Yes, Better Homes & Garden Magazine is a complete blast to work for! It's only day one and I walk out with nearly three pounds of free beauty products! I can definitely get used to this! How amazing?! Bags and bags full of products that companies send the editors. Whatever they don't want, I can have! What girl could have it better? I can do my Christmas and Birthday shopping for family and friends in the comfort of my work! ;) It's a beautiful thing!

Not to mention the work I get to do. It's a mixture of administrative tasks, assisting with photo shoots, editing, etc. I get to dip my hands into all aspects of the department. I am so fortunate to have been given this opportunity and you bet I am going to make the most out of it, and work my booty off to make a good impression! Meredith Corporation is such a great company to be a part of, and I am so thankful for the great recommendations coming from within the company! My editors are absolutely amazing! They are awesome women and they are a ton of fun!!!

Work is fun, as usual. My co-workers are so much fun and I really enjoy myself there! Checking coats is a great way to make some extra money in tips! I didn't even realize! However, when they tell you to buy slip-resistant shoes, don't wear your super-cute flat boots, no matter how much they make your outfit look good. When you continue to slip, you are eventually going to face plant it. And that will be nothing short of humiliating. So, I will no longer be wearing these boots that I adore. It's back to the old woman, black flats that will keep me from a broken leg!

Note to self: Even though it looks sunny out, the buildings create quite the shadows. So, don't wear your sunglasses. People aren't looking at you because they find you attractive. No. They are probably looking at you, thinking, Who is divalicious here, wearing her sunglasses when the sun is not shining. Also, wearing leggings with a sweater dress is cute, but not when you keep pulling at it to make sure your booty doesn't play peek-a-boo with innocent by-standers. Don't tug at yourself. And stop walking like your thighs are glued together. That's why people are staring. They're trying to figure what the hell you're doing and what on earth is wrong with you! They're sympathy/concerned/confused glances. That's it.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Day 52

October 28, 2009

Okay, I need to talk about Twilight. I cannot put it down! I use to ask myself, who gets into a book about vampires? That's just ridiculous! No, I'm ridiculous for not reading it earlier! I'm finding myself reading ahead in anticipation of Edward's next move. Which, by the way, I'm absolutely in LOVE with him! He is so perfect, I can't even explain it! I want him to caress MY cheek, brush his lips on MY jawline, and tuck MY hair behind my head! Everything that comes out of his mouth is so poetic, I find myself smiling and laughing giddily. I'm like a teenager all over again! ;) It's so funny!

Let's just say, I got home at 5:30 tonight and it's now 10:50--I have yet to turn on my tv, have a phone conversation longer than ten minutes, or even eat dinner! I have become part of the phenomenon. My friend Greg says, "Remember Ashley, you're educated." He doesn't agree with my liking! ;) He just does not understand!

When it rains, it pours! Lately, I have been in a MAJOR slump. I am being dramatic about how life never works in my favor, why can't things go right for me, I'm a failure...blah, blah, blah. I am completely over myself right now! It's time I get a grip. Well, today...I get an internship at Better Homes & Garden Magazine in the Fashion & Beauty department! How perfect is that?!?! I can't even believe it. The opportunity I told you I thought I blew about a week ago? This is it! So, I didn't blow it! Yay!!!!! I start next Wednesday! Plus, I get an e-mail about interviewing for a receptionist position (I obviously turned it down), a phone call from a PR company wanting to set up an interview, and a magazine in Naples, FL, offering me freelance work! I tell ya' what! I would rather have this problem, than the one before! ;)

I do start my training as a hostess for Ruby Tuesday's in Times Square. It's such a nice place...much better than Planet Hollywood! No more selling VISA cards, standing in the cold of the front door! I do miss the employees, though! The trainer has me a little distracted by his rather tight pants and bulging penis. I think he may or may not have caught me peeking a couple times--I took the shifting of how he was seating as a hint to control my wandering eyes. How can you not stare at that though? Especially, when his two partners in crime down there are practically staring me in the face as he stands over me, while I sit in the booth? You can't. Any woman would do the same thing in my position.

Off for more reading! Goodnight!

Note to self: Is it wrong or weird to wish that you had a man like Edward in your life? I mean, he is just a character from a book? The fact that his mysterious, perfectness is so mesmerizing you think about one day, a man saying all this to you? And hopefully, looking like this? Maybe, but for the while, it's always fun to pretend! Then, you need to realize, your life is not meant for someone like this. It's a proven fact--one man is psychotically/obsessed with you and still calls you even though he's married, with a baby on the way. A few others are your typical male "whores." Then you get one who really isn't interested in you at all, has a good way of hiding it, but is still pretty psycho and just not normal when it comes to relationships. Then one who is perfect, minus the numerical differences in body measurements (no, I'm not talking about his "member"). Then, you get one who wants to talk with you on the phone, but not really see you in person. Just realize that you're doomed. But that one day, your imperfect, Prince Charming will come along and all of his imperfections will suit you perfectly! ;)