January, 7 2010
I wake up this morning, still not feeling well. But I think to myself, I need to have the fresh attitude and outlook on the city, as if I just moved here all over again. I feel like I've started taking the cities little quirks for granted. Things I once found funny, are just now normal. It's not normal a lady pulls out her rather large, professional-looking camera and takes two pictures of me, while I'm walking to work today. Yes...this really did happen. I didn't know whether or not to be like Madonna and "Vogue," or keep walking. Considering I am quite stunned at the fact she would do this and the flash blinded me ever-so-slightly, I continue walking. Why does she want my picture?? I do have a rather cute outfit on today...I bet this is why! ;)
But in all seriousness...I tell myself this morning, no cell phone usage and no iPod usage on the way to work this morning. You are going to pay attention to your surroundings and actually take in all that is going on around you. One problem: there is NOTHING going on around me. Normal people walking to work. I guess all of the weirdos hide out on Thursday mornings. I'm tired of seeing men in suits (okay...maybe not) ;), and women in suits, and people walking their dogs. Whan! Whan! Give me something exciting to jump start my morning!
I only last a block and a half, then I whip out the phone. I don't really have a lot to say or converse about, but it fills my time and I get to catch up with my poor mother who is house-ridden, due to the God-awful snow and weather in Iowa. I get bored so easily with nothing to listen to! I always get irritated with myself about my impatience, but it's something I just can't help. I love talking! I love music! And I love being around people! I have been blessed with the gift of gab! And those of you who know me are probably shaking your heads up and down right now! ;)
So, the last few days I've had a really nervous stomach. I don't know why. But I will tell you, every time in my past, no matter if it was second grade, high school, or college...whenever I get a nervous stomach, something always happens a short time later. I have nothing to be nervous about. Maybe I'm just being paranoid...but we'll see! It could be all of the coffee I've been drinking. My name is Ashley and I'm an addict. =)
I have three cups of coffee today. It's getting bad. Caffeine is like alcohol to me. I get the urge to dance, I think everything is comical, and I get really friendly! It's great! No hangover! Problem is, when I'm sitting in my cube, all by myself, the only thing I can laugh at is me. So, as I'm perusing on the computer for beauty products, random ideas and thoughts pop in my head, and I start laughing out loud to myself. Probably to things that are not in the least bit funny. For example...I'm looking up makeup websites. Literally, after two hours of researching, a site pops up on Google...www.makeup.com. I say out loud, "Hmm...makeup.com. (I shrug ever so slightly) Who would have thought?" Then, I start laughing at the fact of how I can be so dumb that this is not the first thing I thought of. AND, it takes me two hours to discover it! Dummy!
I'm walking home and I always walk down 42nd St. until I reach 8th Avenue. You know the Conde Nast building that was on the news for having a white van sitting in front of it...potentially a bomb? Yeah...I walk by there everyday. Comforting, right? =) I know no one else finds this funny but me. But anyways...right down the street is the heart of Times Square. To the left, there is a large train station. It is CLEAR that's what it is. Look at this picture, here. So, I'm walking and I hear this girl say, "Oh my God! Like, I totally thought that was a Subway restaurant. I mean, who wouldn't think that? With like, all of the eating places around here." Ha! You big dummy! What part of this picture makes you think of footlong sandwiches? Maybe it's just me. ;)
I'm almost done with Eclipse. It's the third book in the Twilight series. It doesn't help I'm a hopeless romantic. Jacob is so great and Edward is even better! They both love the same girl and both are fighting their hardest to get/keep her! Must be nice! To know a guy will do everything in his power to never let you go. Ahhh...that's the life! ;)
My friend, Shelby, calls me tonight. We're talking about relationships and how our friends have been getting married and are getting ready to be married. I say, "One day, a man is going to walk through the doors and be the man of my dreams!" She replies with, "Yes, he's going to be the heir to the Hostess Cupcake throne!" LOL! What?! That's so funny! Of all thrones, I get the HoHo God! Too funny! We then start talking about a college reunion in the next 3-5 years. I find this place today on Vogue.com. Check it out, here! It's in Jackson Hole, Wyoming--in the Grand Teton Mountains. It sounds a little odd, but it looks so beautiful! They have cabins overlooking the mountains, hiking, float trips, etc. What a perfect way to spend with great friends!! Nice and relaxing, but full of crazy potential!
Note to self: Go home, don't turn on the television, and just read in quiet. Reading is such a great way to get your mind off of everything. You never have to really think while reading. You consume yourself with the fictional story so much, that the real world no longer exists for the two or so hours you spend hovered in your bed. It's nice to be in complete silence and not be bored. Weird, right? Considering a few short hours ago I was bouncing home, talking a hundred miles a minute on the phone, with my arms flailing all over the place!
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Day 58
November 3, 2009
The last few months, when I decide to do something. I just do it. I don't really think about the consequences, the repercussions, the negatives, or the positives. I just go for it. It's completely unlike me to act this way. But I figure, why not? I've always lived on the "safe" side and over-analyzed everything I've ever done. Which led me back to where I didn't want to be.
My grandma sent me an e-mail yesterday that read, "The challenge you face is of your own design--that's what makes it worthwhile. Even so, you might not be sure whether you can do it. The faith of someone close to you will make the difference." Pretty good, huh? Totally pertains to my life and how I just jumped into moving to NYC and going after jobs, I never thought I would get. Taking risks and not even caring about the outcome. And guess what...it has been worthwhile and it's all worked out quite nicely!
So, I'm at work today and it's crazy, as usual. But I love it! It turns five o'clock and another hostess comes in to take over. I say, "Hey girl!" Then, I hear, "Hey!" I turn around and guess who it is? It's a guest of the restaurant, and she's black. Of course! She probably is thinking, who is this white girl, and why is she addressing me as 'Hey girl' when I walk in the restaurant. It looks like I'm completely racially profiling her. Go figure that happens to me.
One thing I like about being new--if you make a mistake, no one gets mad at you. My dad always tells me, "You can play the 'Oh shit' card once, but after that, you better be ready to be held accountable." So true. Needless to say, my 'oh shit' card has now expired.
I get home and I have two letters in the mail! I love mail! One is another Starbucks gift card--I love it! And the second are pictures of my cousin's baby! He is so cute! Now, I have pictures to put in my empty picture frames in my apartment!
My friend Shelby calls me today to wish me luck tomorrow on my first day as the Better Homes & Garden, Fashion & Beauty Editorial intern. Yes, that is a lot to say in one sentence. She then tells me she is researching blogs and she got tired, so she started reading mine for fun! If you're reading this today Shelby, Get back to work! ;) Love you!
I have to say, I'm getting annoyed with "New Moon." I'm tired of Bella and Jacob. I'm ready for Edward to come back! I'm over the werewolves, Victoria, and the repetitious "Bella feeling sorry for herself." It's time the book gets exciting! And it's almost over! Time for the pace to pick up. I did see a preview for the premier on November 20. I will be one of those nuts who is there at the midnight showing. I can't help myself anymore.
Note to self: Have faith. When you're having a difficult time with something, try not to think about it. Just have faith that everything will happen all in good time. Don't give up that faith because it will happen. What you want in life, you will succeed. With effort, time, and faith. No one said life is easy, they just said it would be worth it! ;)
The last few months, when I decide to do something. I just do it. I don't really think about the consequences, the repercussions, the negatives, or the positives. I just go for it. It's completely unlike me to act this way. But I figure, why not? I've always lived on the "safe" side and over-analyzed everything I've ever done. Which led me back to where I didn't want to be.
My grandma sent me an e-mail yesterday that read, "The challenge you face is of your own design--that's what makes it worthwhile. Even so, you might not be sure whether you can do it. The faith of someone close to you will make the difference." Pretty good, huh? Totally pertains to my life and how I just jumped into moving to NYC and going after jobs, I never thought I would get. Taking risks and not even caring about the outcome. And guess what...it has been worthwhile and it's all worked out quite nicely!
So, I'm at work today and it's crazy, as usual. But I love it! It turns five o'clock and another hostess comes in to take over. I say, "Hey girl!" Then, I hear, "Hey!" I turn around and guess who it is? It's a guest of the restaurant, and she's black. Of course! She probably is thinking, who is this white girl, and why is she addressing me as 'Hey girl' when I walk in the restaurant. It looks like I'm completely racially profiling her. Go figure that happens to me.
One thing I like about being new--if you make a mistake, no one gets mad at you. My dad always tells me, "You can play the 'Oh shit' card once, but after that, you better be ready to be held accountable." So true. Needless to say, my 'oh shit' card has now expired.
I get home and I have two letters in the mail! I love mail! One is another Starbucks gift card--I love it! And the second are pictures of my cousin's baby! He is so cute! Now, I have pictures to put in my empty picture frames in my apartment!
My friend Shelby calls me today to wish me luck tomorrow on my first day as the Better Homes & Garden, Fashion & Beauty Editorial intern. Yes, that is a lot to say in one sentence. She then tells me she is researching blogs and she got tired, so she started reading mine for fun! If you're reading this today Shelby, Get back to work! ;) Love you!
I have to say, I'm getting annoyed with "New Moon." I'm tired of Bella and Jacob. I'm ready for Edward to come back! I'm over the werewolves, Victoria, and the repetitious "Bella feeling sorry for herself." It's time the book gets exciting! And it's almost over! Time for the pace to pick up. I did see a preview for the premier on November 20. I will be one of those nuts who is there at the midnight showing. I can't help myself anymore.
Note to self: Have faith. When you're having a difficult time with something, try not to think about it. Just have faith that everything will happen all in good time. Don't give up that faith because it will happen. What you want in life, you will succeed. With effort, time, and faith. No one said life is easy, they just said it would be worth it! ;)
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Day 54, 55, 56
October 30-November 1
Halloween Weekend! I got a little side-tracked this weekend, so decided to just clump it all into one big blog. As previously stated, Friday night is low-key. I spend all day, walking all over the city to find a pair of cat ears for Halloween night. My costume comes in the mail, in hopes my body will still fit into it. Considering I wore it last when I was a fit high schooler, I'm a little nervous! So, scouring the city is okay with me at this point. Any form of last-minute exercise is crucial! Which explains my limited amount of eating!
I watch the movie, Twilight. Okay, so maybe Rob Pattinson is amazing! However, I think it's more his character that I'm fascinated with, rather than him personally. Edward is the best man ever created! (Even if he is only fictional) The ending...not a fan! The book is much better. I'm highly anticipating New Moon!
Saturday comes and I am ready to go out! I still have yet to try on the costume! I'm too nervous that my butt cheeks are going to be sneaking out the sides of the leotard, so I'm avoiding it at all costs! ;) I go to the liquor store to buy a bottle of really cheap wine and I hear, "Trick or treat! Happy Halloween!" I get really excited! A liquor store handing out Halloween treats? I wonder what it could be?? As I'm checking out, I turn to see young children getting candy from the counter! Only in NYC can a child walk into a liquor store and receive candy. While they're telling jokes, mom and dad can purchase a little vodka, maybe some whiskey...Trick-or-Treating will be more fun for them this way! ;) I could tell a good joke for a shot! Maybe raising kids in the city isn't so bad after all! ;)
We go to a bar called, Amalia. Apparently, it's one of the hottest new spots in New York. It's really cool! The music is a mix of 80s and modern hip hop. And I do, successfully, get into my costume! Yes! I don't know how I do it, but somehow, short men are attracted to me. And last night...a short black man, tries to convince me that I need to date men of his race. I'm not opposed, but the height...he looks like my younger, twelve-year-old brother. I do not want to be plagued as a pedophile if we go to a bar. And...who gets into serious issues on Halloween?
Talk of cheating, politics, and past relationships? No thank you! I just met you sir, with absolutely no intentions of going out with you. Let's just call it a night after you tell me that cheating is okay and I'm still young, so "I'm excited for you, Bridgett." Yeah, I'm Bridgett to those who I want to leave me alone! I'm sorry your 5-year long relationship ended, but it's not really a hot topic to be discussed while I'm out with friends. Men need to stop thinking I'm a female Dr. Phil! I can't solve your problems! Thank goodness it's time to go!
Street meat! Oh yes! It has been too long! I am thoroughly excited it is on our way home. And small world...I run into a woman from Davenport! People from Iowa keep popping up all over out here! I love it! My favorite thing about walking home. Valerie asks a couple, "Hey, what are you?!" Their serious response, "Indian." The funny thing...she isn't asking about your ethnicity, people. She wants to know your costumes! Hahahaha! I can't help but laugh out loud! Classic!
Sunday is low-key as well. I start New Moon! I cannot wait any longer. I have already read 200 pages! I'm a little disappointed already that Edward is gone. But, I will admit, I snuck ahead to read the last five sentences and much to my pleasure, Edward is back! A part of my heart sunk when he said he no longer wanted Bella. It's like, I'm going through the break up! That Stephenie Meyer is one great writer! The perfect ending to a weekend...Sunday night television. Desperate Housewives, Brothers & Sisters, and the Yankees game. Cheers to a good weekend!
Note to self: The Internet is a dangerous thing. When you walk down the street, pretty exposed, and people randomly take pictures of you, it makes you wonder how many Facebook pages you're going to end up on, and you're going to have no idea! It's probably a smart idea to turn your cheek, so by some small chance, others you know will not recognize you if something like this happens. When people whistle and yell from the sidewalk and their cars, "Hey, sex kitten," don't look. Although Halloween is a night you can dress like this and enjoy yourself, you should also be a little pre-cautious.
Halloween Weekend! I got a little side-tracked this weekend, so decided to just clump it all into one big blog. As previously stated, Friday night is low-key. I spend all day, walking all over the city to find a pair of cat ears for Halloween night. My costume comes in the mail, in hopes my body will still fit into it. Considering I wore it last when I was a fit high schooler, I'm a little nervous! So, scouring the city is okay with me at this point. Any form of last-minute exercise is crucial! Which explains my limited amount of eating!
I watch the movie, Twilight. Okay, so maybe Rob Pattinson is amazing! However, I think it's more his character that I'm fascinated with, rather than him personally. Edward is the best man ever created! (Even if he is only fictional) The ending...not a fan! The book is much better. I'm highly anticipating New Moon!
Saturday comes and I am ready to go out! I still have yet to try on the costume! I'm too nervous that my butt cheeks are going to be sneaking out the sides of the leotard, so I'm avoiding it at all costs! ;) I go to the liquor store to buy a bottle of really cheap wine and I hear, "Trick or treat! Happy Halloween!" I get really excited! A liquor store handing out Halloween treats? I wonder what it could be?? As I'm checking out, I turn to see young children getting candy from the counter! Only in NYC can a child walk into a liquor store and receive candy. While they're telling jokes, mom and dad can purchase a little vodka, maybe some whiskey...Trick-or-Treating will be more fun for them this way! ;) I could tell a good joke for a shot! Maybe raising kids in the city isn't so bad after all! ;)
We go to a bar called, Amalia. Apparently, it's one of the hottest new spots in New York. It's really cool! The music is a mix of 80s and modern hip hop. And I do, successfully, get into my costume! Yes! I don't know how I do it, but somehow, short men are attracted to me. And last night...a short black man, tries to convince me that I need to date men of his race. I'm not opposed, but the height...he looks like my younger, twelve-year-old brother. I do not want to be plagued as a pedophile if we go to a bar. And...who gets into serious issues on Halloween?
Talk of cheating, politics, and past relationships? No thank you! I just met you sir, with absolutely no intentions of going out with you. Let's just call it a night after you tell me that cheating is okay and I'm still young, so "I'm excited for you, Bridgett." Yeah, I'm Bridgett to those who I want to leave me alone! I'm sorry your 5-year long relationship ended, but it's not really a hot topic to be discussed while I'm out with friends. Men need to stop thinking I'm a female Dr. Phil! I can't solve your problems! Thank goodness it's time to go!
Street meat! Oh yes! It has been too long! I am thoroughly excited it is on our way home. And small world...I run into a woman from Davenport! People from Iowa keep popping up all over out here! I love it! My favorite thing about walking home. Valerie asks a couple, "Hey, what are you?!" Their serious response, "Indian." The funny thing...she isn't asking about your ethnicity, people. She wants to know your costumes! Hahahaha! I can't help but laugh out loud! Classic!
Sunday is low-key as well. I start New Moon! I cannot wait any longer. I have already read 200 pages! I'm a little disappointed already that Edward is gone. But, I will admit, I snuck ahead to read the last five sentences and much to my pleasure, Edward is back! A part of my heart sunk when he said he no longer wanted Bella. It's like, I'm going through the break up! That Stephenie Meyer is one great writer! The perfect ending to a weekend...Sunday night television. Desperate Housewives, Brothers & Sisters, and the Yankees game. Cheers to a good weekend!
Note to self: The Internet is a dangerous thing. When you walk down the street, pretty exposed, and people randomly take pictures of you, it makes you wonder how many Facebook pages you're going to end up on, and you're going to have no idea! It's probably a smart idea to turn your cheek, so by some small chance, others you know will not recognize you if something like this happens. When people whistle and yell from the sidewalk and their cars, "Hey, sex kitten," don't look. Although Halloween is a night you can dress like this and enjoy yourself, you should also be a little pre-cautious.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Day 52
October 28, 2009
Okay, I need to talk about Twilight. I cannot put it down! I use to ask myself, who gets into a book about vampires? That's just ridiculous! No, I'm ridiculous for not reading it earlier! I'm finding myself reading ahead in anticipation of Edward's next move. Which, by the way, I'm absolutely in LOVE with him! He is so perfect, I can't even explain it! I want him to caress MY cheek, brush his lips on MY jawline, and tuck MY hair behind my head! Everything that comes out of his mouth is so poetic, I find myself smiling and laughing giddily. I'm like a teenager all over again! ;) It's so funny!
Let's just say, I got home at 5:30 tonight and it's now 10:50--I have yet to turn on my tv, have a phone conversation longer than ten minutes, or even eat dinner! I have become part of the phenomenon. My friend Greg says, "Remember Ashley, you're educated." He doesn't agree with my liking! ;) He just does not understand!
When it rains, it pours! Lately, I have been in a MAJOR slump. I am being dramatic about how life never works in my favor, why can't things go right for me, I'm a failure...blah, blah, blah. I am completely over myself right now! It's time I get a grip. Well, today...I get an internship at Better Homes & Garden Magazine in the Fashion & Beauty department! How perfect is that?!?! I can't even believe it. The opportunity I told you I thought I blew about a week ago? This is it! So, I didn't blow it! Yay!!!!! I start next Wednesday! Plus, I get an e-mail about interviewing for a receptionist position (I obviously turned it down), a phone call from a PR company wanting to set up an interview, and a magazine in Naples, FL, offering me freelance work! I tell ya' what! I would rather have this problem, than the one before! ;)
I do start my training as a hostess for Ruby Tuesday's in Times Square. It's such a nice place...much better than Planet Hollywood! No more selling VISA cards, standing in the cold of the front door! I do miss the employees, though! The trainer has me a little distracted by his rather tight pants and bulging penis. I think he may or may not have caught me peeking a couple times--I took the shifting of how he was seating as a hint to control my wandering eyes. How can you not stare at that though? Especially, when his two partners in crime down there are practically staring me in the face as he stands over me, while I sit in the booth? You can't. Any woman would do the same thing in my position.
Off for more reading! Goodnight!
Note to self: Is it wrong or weird to wish that you had a man like Edward in your life? I mean, he is just a character from a book? The fact that his mysterious, perfectness is so mesmerizing you think about one day, a man saying all this to you? And hopefully, looking like this? Maybe, but for the while, it's always fun to pretend! Then, you need to realize, your life is not meant for someone like this. It's a proven fact--one man is psychotically/obsessed with you and still calls you even though he's married, with a baby on the way. A few others are your typical male "whores." Then you get one who really isn't interested in you at all, has a good way of hiding it, but is still pretty psycho and just not normal when it comes to relationships. Then one who is perfect, minus the numerical differences in body measurements (no, I'm not talking about his "member"). Then, you get one who wants to talk with you on the phone, but not really see you in person. Just realize that you're doomed. But that one day, your imperfect, Prince Charming will come along and all of his imperfections will suit you perfectly! ;)
Okay, I need to talk about Twilight. I cannot put it down! I use to ask myself, who gets into a book about vampires? That's just ridiculous! No, I'm ridiculous for not reading it earlier! I'm finding myself reading ahead in anticipation of Edward's next move. Which, by the way, I'm absolutely in LOVE with him! He is so perfect, I can't even explain it! I want him to caress MY cheek, brush his lips on MY jawline, and tuck MY hair behind my head! Everything that comes out of his mouth is so poetic, I find myself smiling and laughing giddily. I'm like a teenager all over again! ;) It's so funny!
Let's just say, I got home at 5:30 tonight and it's now 10:50--I have yet to turn on my tv, have a phone conversation longer than ten minutes, or even eat dinner! I have become part of the phenomenon. My friend Greg says, "Remember Ashley, you're educated." He doesn't agree with my liking! ;) He just does not understand!
When it rains, it pours! Lately, I have been in a MAJOR slump. I am being dramatic about how life never works in my favor, why can't things go right for me, I'm a failure...blah, blah, blah. I am completely over myself right now! It's time I get a grip. Well, today...I get an internship at Better Homes & Garden Magazine in the Fashion & Beauty department! How perfect is that?!?! I can't even believe it. The opportunity I told you I thought I blew about a week ago? This is it! So, I didn't blow it! Yay!!!!! I start next Wednesday! Plus, I get an e-mail about interviewing for a receptionist position (I obviously turned it down), a phone call from a PR company wanting to set up an interview, and a magazine in Naples, FL, offering me freelance work! I tell ya' what! I would rather have this problem, than the one before! ;)
I do start my training as a hostess for Ruby Tuesday's in Times Square. It's such a nice place...much better than Planet Hollywood! No more selling VISA cards, standing in the cold of the front door! I do miss the employees, though! The trainer has me a little distracted by his rather tight pants and bulging penis. I think he may or may not have caught me peeking a couple times--I took the shifting of how he was seating as a hint to control my wandering eyes. How can you not stare at that though? Especially, when his two partners in crime down there are practically staring me in the face as he stands over me, while I sit in the booth? You can't. Any woman would do the same thing in my position.
Off for more reading! Goodnight!
Note to self: Is it wrong or weird to wish that you had a man like Edward in your life? I mean, he is just a character from a book? The fact that his mysterious, perfectness is so mesmerizing you think about one day, a man saying all this to you? And hopefully, looking like this? Maybe, but for the while, it's always fun to pretend! Then, you need to realize, your life is not meant for someone like this. It's a proven fact--one man is psychotically/obsessed with you and still calls you even though he's married, with a baby on the way. A few others are your typical male "whores." Then you get one who really isn't interested in you at all, has a good way of hiding it, but is still pretty psycho and just not normal when it comes to relationships. Then one who is perfect, minus the numerical differences in body measurements (no, I'm not talking about his "member"). Then, you get one who wants to talk with you on the phone, but not really see you in person. Just realize that you're doomed. But that one day, your imperfect, Prince Charming will come along and all of his imperfections will suit you perfectly! ;)